Growing Pains

I went through this period of feeling really inadequate and unsatisfied with myself for a lot of things. At first it was just for silly things like wishing I was better at photography or that I was smarter or more informed about things. Then it was wishing I was healthier and wishing I was a better daughter, a better friend, a better girlfriend, a better Christian. It was overwhelming and kind of depressing, actually. Then I realized, of course I'm inadequate. I'm only human. So I says to myself, stop whining you big baby! It just means I have room for improvement, right? It's all so time consuming though. Time exercising, time praying, time with people, time practicing hobbies... time reading the news, even. Maybe that's why I've been so upset that I don't have many plans this Memorial weekend. Time is too precious to waste. Anyways, two more weeks of school and then I'll have (almost) all the time in the world. Playtime, anyone?

Bold

I am not ashamed of the gospel, because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes
--Romans 1:16

Phobias

It took me a week to realize this, but I think I have a phobia that resurfaced from childhood. I jump into bed because I'm scared something underneath it is going to grab my ankles. Yeah, really. Haha. I tried googling to see if there's a name for it. Nope. But I found these:

Anuptaphobia - fear of staying single
Asymmetriphobia - fear of asymmetry
Cacophobia - fear of ugliness
Consecotaleophobia - fear of chopsticks
Doxophobia - fear of expressing opinions
Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia - fear of the number 666
Ommetaphobia/Ommatophobia - fear of eyes (nooooo!!!!!)
Omphalophobia - fear of belly buttons
Paraskavedekatriaphobia - fear of friday the 13th
Peladophobia - fear of bald people
Phagophobia - fear of being eaten
Phronemophobia - fear of thinking

10 things I hate about you

1. I think I'm allergic to being home. I'm always sick these days.
2. I have a special ring tone for my favorite non-family/boyfriend people. Hearing it is unfortunately surprising. And exciting.
3. Tuesdays and Sundays are my favorite days of the week.
4. I have a curious rash in the grooves between my pointer/middle and middle/ring fingers.
5. Future roomie and I decided on an apartment today.
6. Our oven is still broken. I really miss baking.
7. Life since college has been the most difficult stage of my life so far.
8. I still drag my rory blanket everywhere. Consequentially, it's 10x less soft than Paul's. Sadface.
9. I have the rest of my life planned out. Yup.
10. I'm going to blame lack of blogging and photographing/editing on lack of laptopping.

For love is from God

⁷Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God; and everyone who loves is born of God and knows God. ⁸The one who does not love does not know God, for God is love. ⁹By this the love of God was manifested in us, that God has sent His only begotten Son into the world so that we might live through Him. ¹⁰In this is love, not that we loved God, but that He loved us and sent His Son to be the propitiation for our sins. ¹¹Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.
--1 John 4:7-11 (NASB)