Pascal Death Song

Lyrics by Eric An, as presented during senior seminar at summer con ohnine:
suspended, spinning -- a grain of wheat falling to the ground.
i am but a single grain. i don't want to die yet.
but you said to gain my life, i must lose it.
so take this grain of mine and let it yield a great harvest.

looking back, i just see regrets of not living wholly for you.
i must move on, but i feel like this journey will be a restless one.
help me to know that you who have given me life can still take me deeper.
help me to let go of the god of last season to embrace the one who walks with me now.

i don't want to move. i don't want to fall. i don't want to let go.
release these clutched fingers of mine and pull me into this new life.

.....

peace, be still. and the waves ceased.
peace, be still. and there was a great calm.
peace, be still, and the waves cease.
peace, be still. and there was a great calm.

i am with you and my spirit remains.
do not fear. do not fear.
i will grant peace in the place you will stay.
do not fear. do not fear.

do not fear.

homegirl

No one understands me like my bbgrl Sel. On the reals, yo.



"What defines a best friend? What are the requirements to be a good best friend? How many hours a week does it entail? Stupid questions that have no answers. A best friend is not defined by how many times they talk on the phone, or how many hours they hang out together. It is not defined by how many sleepovers they gossip at, or how many inside jokes they have. There are no requirements or laws that state that a good best friend must hang out with them every weekend, or tell each other every little detail. A best friend is a matter of opinion. It is the person who has been there for you through everything, not just through the fun things, or the little things. It is the person that you call when you are at your absolute worst, it is the person who saves you when you didn’t even notice that you needed saving, mostly it is the person who accepts you for who you are, and the person that you are becoming."
--[I completely forgot where I stole this from.]