Pascal Death Song

Lyrics by Eric An, as presented during senior seminar at summer con ohnine:
suspended, spinning -- a grain of wheat falling to the ground.
i am but a single grain. i don't want to die yet.
but you said to gain my life, i must lose it.
so take this grain of mine and let it yield a great harvest.

looking back, i just see regrets of not living wholly for you.
i must move on, but i feel like this journey will be a restless one.
help me to know that you who have given me life can still take me deeper.
help me to let go of the god of last season to embrace the one who walks with me now.

i don't want to move. i don't want to fall. i don't want to let go.
release these clutched fingers of mine and pull me into this new life.

.....

peace, be still. and the waves ceased.
peace, be still. and there was a great calm.
peace, be still, and the waves cease.
peace, be still. and there was a great calm.

i am with you and my spirit remains.
do not fear. do not fear.
i will grant peace in the place you will stay.
do not fear. do not fear.

do not fear.